Dear Imaginative Woman,
Last week I wrapped up my series on how I came to decide to quit my Dull Gray Cubicle job.
I wanted to dive into this decision in a deep way to illuminate just how important reconnecting to your true self is on this journey.
I wasn't able to figure out what I wanted to do instead of my DGC job until I felt at least a tiny bit like myself again.
It was then that I was able to make decisions from a place of authenticity, which is why I've now become a writer and a personal development teacher.
If I had continued to be disconnected, my hunch is I would have continued making inauthentic decisions and recreating my Dull Gray Cubicle job over and over again.
I believe practicing Connection is the key to making fulfilling career choices.
But here's the other great thing about Connection - it not only helps with your career, it can also help you create a whole wonderful life.
Today, I want to share a story with you I told last week in my Facebook Group (which you're totally welcome to join!!).
This is a story of an adventure I got to go on because I've been doing the work of coming back to myself for the past 6 years.
I can't even begin to tell you how afraid I used to be of the ocean, and of SHARKS in particular.
As a kid I used to love playing in the waves of the Atlantic, but I never went out too far. I hugged the shoreline, always.
The older I got the more afraid I became. I freaked out not just in the ocean, but when I was swimming in lakes too.
Just the possibility of a little fish swishing by me would have me racing to shore.
I think a lot about Little Emma and how important safety was to her.
I crafted a life based on safety. I didn't travel. I didn't explore. I stayed close to home.
This, of course, wasn't the Real Me. This was the Scared Me, which is different.
Scared Me purposely created a small life, a life that felt withered, dry, parched.
I started to recover the Real Me 6 years ago, when I first did The Artist's Way.
Since then I have been becoming more and more of the Real Me everyday.
The more ME I become the more risks I take, the bigger my life gets, and the happier I am.
I don't often stop to notice just how much I've changed, because it happens little by little in a way that can easily go unacknowledged.
But a day like today forces me to take stock, because today I snorkeled above a reef off the coast of Hawaii.
I was IN THE OCEAN, you know, where SHARKS live.
And I wasn't afraid.
I allowed the depths to get deeper below me the further I swam from shore.
I watched a million different fish nibble on coral.
I watched a green sea turtle bob its head above the water.
And I swam out over the barrier of the reef, the tall coral where on the other side there is a cliff into the True Deep.
I didn't stay there long, because that part was legitimately spooky, BUT I DID IT!!!
When I was done swimming I sat in the sandy surf near shore and told myself again and again, "This is real. I'm in Hawai'i. I'm snorkeling!!"
I reached back in time to Little Emma. I told her about how wonderful things are going to get in her life, and I told her about our big ocean victory!
And on the schedule for tomorrow? More snorkeling!
This is what coming back to yourself can do. The more you practice feeling connected, the more big, joyous, and wonderful your whole life will become.
P.S. Did you know The School of Wild Authenticity has a new Facebook group? Escape Your Dull Gray Cubicle Job is the perfect group for you if you are an imaginative woman stuck in the trap of a Dull Gray Cubicle job, who wants to find the freedom and empowerment to come alive and do what you are meant to do. We'll be having so much fun over there! Come and join us!