When I started writing online a few years ago, I thought the biggest, hardest, baddest thing possible would be for an internet troll to attack me, but when I published my first post, I discovered there might be something even worse than that.
No internet trolls attacked my post, but also NO ONE responded. I mean no one...not a like, not a comment, not a peep.
I had spent so much time worrying about trolls, I never even considered the possibility of the pain of being ignored.
I should probably talk to you about what happened this week...about the injustice...about the rage...which I'm seeing and feeling profoundly today. I feel so freaking angry right now.
But mostly I'm still taking it in, and I'm feeling a lot. I'm not quite ready to talk.
Some people are so amazing at writing and expressing themselves in the moment of crisis. I am forever impressed by that.
For me, in these moments of crisis, my heart turns inward. I feel silently and quietly, and so at...
I started a writing prompt course a few days ago, and today I want to share one of the pieces I wrote with all of you!
This was such a fun prompt. I found myself saying things I didn't expect. These are things I normally don't share, but they are pieces of me I want to explore more.
This is one of those examples where writing can help you see things about yourself you normally don't see.
So...if you ever wanted to get to know me a little better and if you want a...
Last night my husband and I went on a long, winding drive. We moved to the Pacific Northwest this year, and I love how I can go for a drive at night while it's raining and I don’t have to worry the rain might turn to ice or snow. It gets chilly here, but the temperatures rarely go below freezing.
As I drove along the narrow road, with farms to my left and right, I thought about that, and I remembered growing up in New England and getting caught in a snowstorm on...
Last night I stayed up too late, playing a video game and eating chocolate. It was the best.
But during the evening I got a sudden urge to take a class. This is the kind of urge that comes on all of a sudden for me on a somewhat regular basis. I’ll just be hanging out, puttering, or playing a game when suddenly my heart yearns to take a class and nothing can happen until I figure out what kind of class.
My first instinct, of course, is to try to suppress this urge, because it feels like...
I picked an oracle card from Kim Krans's "The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit" deck to bring us a message about saying hello to 2021, and we got The Golden Egg.
In this deck most of the cards are animals, but three cards are not yet animals. They are eggs! This one is the Golden Egg, which represents a message at the center of the heart.
"Within the Golden Egg lives a precious sound. The sound cannot be heard, nor the message discerned until we retreat from the noise of modern day life....
I picked an oracle card from Kim Krans's "The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit" deck to bring us a message about saying goodbye to 2020, and we got Whale.
"We can depend on Whale personalities when all else seems lost, and trust them to be a beacon in our darkest hour." - Kim Krans
As I sit with Whale I see her nose pointing upwards. She is coming up out of the deep water. She is going to the surface for a big breath of fresh air.
Whale says, "It is time to come up for air. Look out across...
“The Moth is sure the grass is greener on the other side. Moth energy is at play when we’re attracted to easy solutions or anything ‘shiny and new.’ This can lead to unfinished projects, disappointment, or burnout. It’s helpful to remind moth personalities that life is complex. No matter the illusion, no one is exempt from the trials and tribulations of this great journey. Practice seeing life as an infinite mystery rather than wishing it was easier or different....
At the very beginning of the year, I pulled an interesting spread of oracle cards from Kim Krans's "The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit" deck.
I asked to see my soul's path for the year and the obstacle in the way of this path.
For the path I picked Owl, and for the obstacle I picked Hawk.
A very clear message came through.
Owls use their auditory systems to hunt. They fly silently through trees, and they listen for the scratching sounds of rodents in the undergrowth. They can hear...
I'm pretty sure I was the only kid in my elementary school who knew the word "pagan", and the only reason I knew it was because my family was decidedly anti-pagan.
I grew up in a born again Christian home where we absolutely, for sure, never did anything that even hinted at an earth-based religion. We did not have Christmas trees or Easter baskets. (Until a little later, but that's another story.) And we definitely did not believe in Santa.
Therefore, I had shaky legs, but a stalwart...